As i sit here,
I wonder how i got to this place,
this place of hurt and lack of self worth
this place that seems to have no beam of light
and I realise,
you brought me here,
you brought me closer to this place each time you didn't
answer a call,
a text,
and then counter moved by talking to me,
making me believe that there was a real connect,
oh well.
Why did I so willingly,
give u the key,
the key to my contentment,
my joy,
my love to learn.
When did I bind my love for me
with your acceptance?
Why?
Why am I so foolish.
To believe that my joy lies,
between the palm of your hands and of those before,
instead of in mine.
wOw.
As I sit in this darkness,
I remember
ever so faintly,
how to go home,
how to go to my rainbow.
So with the beat of my heart,
quickening with each step,
at the anticipation,trepidation.
I realise,
in the blink of my mind's eye.
I am back.
Back at the homes of the blues, greens and reds.
Home
Me
So.
as I sign off this letter,
to inform you (if u care),
that I got safely back to me.
and with a light heart,
I am happy to inform,
I LOVE ME 2 MUCH to like u.